Getting right again.

Yup.  Haven't made an effort to write in about six months.  It has been quite the whirlwind, but I'm not going to recap.  I'll just say that everything that has transpired since August has created who I am right now at this moment... and it is from this moment that I will pick up and continue blogging again.  I busted my ass to finish school - to hurry up and enter the workforce again... but God has different plans for me right now, it seems.  And now I have time to write, to do, to be, and to appreciate.  (But if anyone reading this would like to schedule an appointment for a massage, call me!  Seriously.  I mean it.)

So where am I today??  Healthy.  Healthier than I've been in a very long time... years, I'd say.  I seem to be honing in on that perfect mix of rest, nutrition, movement, and positive thinking.  I still have a lifetime of honing left to do... but for now, I feel better than I have in a very long time.  Maybe five days in the hospital was just the boot up the rear that I needed to get myself back on track.

At some point, my mind started to fix itself.  The way I thought about food.  The way I thought about my workouts.  The way I thought about what was happening (and NOT happening) to me on a daily basis.  The concept of food as fuel has finally clicked.  Its easier to eat the right things when you think about what they do to your body... and avoid the wrong things when you know what they could possibly do.  Cancer?  No thank you!  When I finally succumbed to the fact that I would never be a competitive in CF... even at the sectionals level - my workouts became fun.  I stopped being so hard on myself for every little thing.  I actually look forward to going and not being afraid of the clock.  Funny how that works.  And then there's the way I thought about me - and you can hear it a million times, but until you finally start doing some positive self-talk and truly believing it... you may never see a change.  By the end of 2011, I realized it was okay to believe in myself.  Be proud of myself.  It was a really crummy year.  And it was gratifying to end it on a happy note - knowing I would never see 2011 again. 

So what am I up to?

I'm starting my second round of the Whole30.  If you want to know more, ask me.  I love nothing more than sharing this part of my journey with those who want to better understand what the Whole30 can do for them.  In fact, my first Whole30 was in January.  I fell short on Day 29 when a strong bout of motion sickness almost made the day unbearable and I had to resort to Sierra Mist and salty french fries to keep from barfing all over my husband's truck.  That's what happens when you tell your skydiving jump instructor "DO SOMETHING AWESOME!" when he asks if you like roller coasters.  Lesson learned.  The part I am most excited about for this "redo" round of Whole30 is that I have company to share my Paleo meals with me.  My husband has jumped on board and will be transitioning into the Paleo lifestyle... well, for 30 days at least.  But something tells me that the increase in energy, the better quality of sleep, the looser pants, and many compliments I will be giving him might just keep him at ~90% for the months following.  (I hope so!)

CrossFit is awesome.  I've been consistently throwing around some heavy weight, evolving my pull-up skills, and getting faster times on the varied workouts that I do daily.  Its good to be moving again.  And getting in some very short runs with my hubby is making me feel like my old self - my marathon running self.  And I just can't express how happy that makes me feel... especially when it is something I am sharing with the guy that used to wait for hours on end just to hand me a few jelly beans and a bottle of water mid-race/training run/etc.

I'm getting a lot of rest.  A lot.  Some days I think I'm depressed.  Really depressed.  And I sleep for a few extra hours.  Then I wake up, realize I was just really tired... head up to the gym and bust out a PR.  Now I know - I was never getting enough sleep before.  Sleep is a good thing.  It is healing.  Sleep more, people!!  Good quality, darkened room, silent sleep - it is amazing how much of a difference it will make in your day.

I missed my races last year.  I didn't get to one.  But its okay.  And I'm making some new goals this year.  I'll keep everything to myself for awhile... I have some planning to do and self-discovery to continue with.  But don't worry - as I continue to travel on my way toward those goals, I'll take each of you with me... pictures, stories, and all.

So far, 2012 has far outdone 2011.  Its been a darn good year and we're only 43 days in.  Bring it 2012.  I'm ready for you.

1 comment:

  1. 1) if you needed a boot, i have a closet-ful just waiting to kick you.

    2) i hope Paleos are allowed to drink PLENTY OF WATER WHILE EXERCISING.

    3) i also need a clearer definition of sleeping "more". though right now i pretty much sleep none, so anything would be more, but still...hook a sista up with some solid numbers, yo.